A while ago I reached a dark time in my life. Nothing was going right for me. It seemed like my life had become a series of disasters. My father died, my ceiling collapsed, I hated my job. I couldn’t cope with everything life was throwing at me.
Then I was reminded of that phrase, ‘The definition of stupidity is doing the same thing over and over expecting different results.’ That was me. I hated everything but I wasn’t making any changes in my life. I was doing nothing to improve the situation.
So I began an experiment. I wanted to be more positive, so I challenged myself to tweet out one positive thing each day for a month. I figured if I did it on Twitter, in public, then I’m more likely to finish the month.
Here’s how my Positivity Month came out.
Day 1: My writing is going quite well lately. Slow, but good. I’m excited about it again.
There was a period where I stopped writing. Stress and depression had taken its toll, but I’m back into it again and it feels good.
Day 2: This little guy kept me company during lunch.
Because you’ve got to appreciate the little things in life. Normally I wouldn’t have paid any attention to tiny birds, but being in the ‘positivity’ frame of mind made me sit up and take notice.
Day 3: I like my apartment. It’s pretty cool and I have plenty of space.
This is the first place I’ve lived in by myself and I love it. I’m very happy here.
Day 4: I saw a rainbow today and it was a good one. All the way. I don’t remember the last time I saw a proper rainbow.
Old-Craig wouldn’t have even noticed something like a rainbow. New-Craig noticed it and it really put me in a good mood that day.
Day 5: I’m Alive. This song is an inspiration for me.
Considering the obstacles fate had thrown my way, I should be celebrating the fact that I’m alive. It’s an achievement I’m proud of.
Day 6: Dinner with the family at Hog’s Breath.
My family is pretty cool and its great that I, A. Have a family; and 2. Have the ability to spend time with them.
Day 7: A nice relaxing Sunday doing nothing much at all. No worries. I love my days off.
Doing nothing is freakin’ awesome. I love nothing! If I have nothing to do then I have nothing to worry about. Nothing to stress over. Nothing is great.
Day 8: I actually have some awesome friends.
Add my friends to the list of things I used to take for granted. My friends are awesome. My friend Fritz bought me the awesome phone I have now for my birthday last year.
Day 9: Technology. I carry a device around in my pocket that is more advanced than some of the things in Star Trek.
I am really glad that I was born when I was, because it means I’ve been able to see technology advance before my eyes. Something like my smartphone, if you really think about it, is amazing. When I was a kid I would never have imagined I’d have technology like that. It’s awesome.
Day 10: I don’t work Wednesdays. Day off!
More doing nothing!
Day 11: Time moves forward no matter what’s happening to me, and everything changes with time.
I have a clock that ticks quite loudly in my bedroom and I find it comforting, because it reminds me that time always moves forward. So if things are bad, I know that they will get better with time. And if things are good then I am reminded to be grateful for what I have now because its not going to last forever.
Day 12: I actually like my boss. She’s friendly and well organised, and we get along well.
Although I didn’t really like my job, the woman I worked for was nice, so that’s something.
Day 13: I decided to go into the city. It’s great to get out of the apartment and get some fresh air.
Sometimes when I’m feeling sort of ~off~, I like heading into the city. I live in the suburbs of Sydney so going into the heart of the city gives my brain some new stimulus. It’s refreshing.
Day 14: All of Star Trek is on Netflix!
I have the ability to watch almost any show I want, when I want. It’s quite awesome really.
Day 15: I was really nervous about training that I had to do today, but its turned out quite good.
For boring work-related reasons I had to so some training. I was nervous about it, but it was fun. I learnt a lot and the people there were nice.
Day 16: Free Lunch!
They gave us free lunch at training. Can’t complain about that!
Day 17: Chocolate exists!
This is self-explanatory, right?
Day 18: The customers have been pretty nice today.
I work in retail, which is a see-saw job. It’s very up and down. (get it?) Some days I hate everyone… but not everyday. I have good days in which everyone is pretty nice, so I need to remind myself of that.
Day 19: I’m not horribly ugly. I sort of look like a normal person.
I would never describe myself as good looking… but I’ve gone through periods where I hate everything about myself. Now, however, I’ve improved my attitude enough that I feel comfortable describing myself as normal-looking. I’m quite average, really. But I’m not ugly, and that’s a good thing.
Day 20: Weekends are awesome!
I don’t know what I would do without weekends. Seriously.
Day 21: I live in a place where I can go out and get almost any food I want within about 30-60 minutes. That’s pretty cool.
This is another thing I used to take for granted. The choice of food around here is awesome. It’s amazing that I can get whatever I want without too much trouble.
Day 22: Supercalifragilisticexpialidocious in specific, and words all together in general. What can I say… I like words.
Okay, I feel like this one deserves a little more explanation. On this day I was struggling to stay positive. It was hard work. So I knew I had to think of something that would take me out of that funk and cheer me up. I decided to see if I could remember how to spell Supercalifragilisticexpialidocious, and considering I just typed that from memory, I think I succeeded. And honestly, singing that song in my head all day was hilarious. I still do it when I feel a little depressed. You can’t be sad when you’re singing Supercalifragilisticexpialidocious in your head.
Day 23: I have the power to change my life if I choose to.
The fact that the positivity month was working and I was feeling better is amazing. Sometimes I get stuck in a rut, and I forget that I have the power to change things. The power to change your life is amazing.
Day 24: I’m fairly smart. Well I mean, I’m not dumb.
I don’t like to sound arrogant, but I’m quite smart really, and I like that.
Day 25: I got a free rubbish bin!
My boss at work gave me a bin at a gift. I love free gifts!
Day 26: RuPaul’s Drag Race All Stars 2 starts today!
RPDR is one of my favourite shows. I love it. #TeamKatya!
Day 27: Australia is a pretty cool country to live in. It’s not perfect, but I’m happy with it.
I’m glad I live in Australia. It’s nice and we have relatively few problems compared to the rest of the world.
Day 28: I’m relatively able-bodied. If I wanted to do something I could probably just do it, and that’s pretty cool.
I would never describe myself as fit, but I’m not disabled either. All my parts work and I can do most things I want to do.
Day 29: Frozen pizza!
Food is awesome. Frozen pizza is awesomer.
Day 30: ASMR. It’s nice to come home from a long day at work and have something to relax me.
ASMR has really helped lower my stress levels. I get that its not for everyone, but if you haven’t tried it you should. Personally I love it.
Day 31: The fact that this experiment actually worked. I feel so much better now than I did at the start of the month.
Seriously, on a scale of one to ten I feel like I started the month on a 1 and I ended on a 7. I’m not at 10 yet, I still have a ways to go before I’m honestly, truly happy, but I’m so much better than I was before.
This positivity thing really worked. I’m going to try to keep it up. I want to be a happy, positive person. I like that Craig better.